Penn Humphery couldn’t help but wonder if Serena Woodsen was blind, or what. If he didn't love her, why would he be so thoughtful and considerate, worrying that she wouldn't have enough to eat or sleep, and putting her feelings first? Serena looked at him and responded blandly, "Yeah, I don't love you." Penn was so stunned that he couldn’t speak. Realizing just how heartless she was, he went silent for a moment. "It's okay. It doesn’t matter. I still love you regardless.” Later, someone was faceslapped. There was an online Q&A where one of the questions read: What happened to the top student from your school days? Serena looked at Penn in the kitchen, and typed out: Well, he's now my husband.

Chapter 1 - Turn Off the Lights

Serena Woodsen thought her first time would be guarded by her until the end of time, until the day she died, and that she would never have the opportunity to experience what her best friend Blair Abrams said: “Living to die, and dying to live—You’ll only know what that means when you experience what men and women do together.”

It's not that she was particularly conservative, but between her time in school and working, she never had practical experience until she met the man in front of her.

Her first experience had been particularly good. Her partner was a gentleman and cared for her feelings. Even after he had satisfied himself, he didn’t get up and leave but held her like an intimate lover for a long time, making her feel respected and even deeply loved. His tenderness completely offset her initial nervousness and self-doubt.

Of course, she didn’t tell the man that it was her first time. First, she didn’t want to burden him psychologically, and se